Ugh, there are bagels and cupcakes and m&m's in the kitchen right now....I swear I was sooo close to picking up half a bagel and cream cheese...I still might. I want to binge it all so bad - do you know how long it has been since I've had a cupcake? I'm sick and need something more than the stupid veggies that I brought for lunch today. Ugh...why can't they just bring in fruit or something! Why must they tempt like this - I'm so weak I'm afraid I'll give in! I'm counting to 100 and drinking water....I might need help to get through this one...

I know I shouldn't eat it, I know I'll feel like shit after I do, but why do I still want to eat it...eat it ALL?